Paddy, I keep thinking if I had chosen to resuscitate you or stay with you, will you still be here with me? I miss you dearly. I haven’t seen you for the last 12 days. Where are you now? Are you in a safe place? Are you well and healthy? Do you miss us as much as we miss you?
Yesterday I thought u were sleeping at your usual spot but when I on the lights, it was just the stool. I’m sorry i couldn’t save you. Sorry that I didn’t notice how much pain you were in. Sorry that I even threw my temper at you when you refused to eat. Sorry for not being a ggood master.